I too am disabled with no friends or family support I'm sick and cant get out of my house except by paying someone to take me to doctor which I cant afford. Money will run out soon and I dont know what I will do. My sister wont even help me get to doctor. Seems like my only choice is to end it. I will do this by hanging because it is cheap. I'm scared but see n other way. I'm sorry you are in so much pain . I hope you find a way to make things more bearable .