Please free me from hell.
- Jul 5, 2020
My curse is confirmed and I have no fucking idea how to break it. No one seems to know either. Am I doomed to be murdered by it powerless ?
ME TOOI was freaking out earlier. S.S. wasn't working. I did see the pm after I was able to find it on twitter to log in.
This is what i feel too n reminds me of a lyricsHi Callme,
No I can’t turn it around but thanks for the thought. It’s either keep going with these things while also having new things to pop up and old age also or quit. I’ve been standing at the crossroads for a long time. I hope things can work out for you.
Asking myself that same question everyday all the timeI know it’s never going to get better for me. It’s not possible. So I keep asking myself why do I continue to stay when I know the only thing ahead is suffering.
It is when you are as fat as I am.
Naw. Body positivity!
I’m fat too and yes, sometimes I eat a whole pizza or a whole bag of chips.
In the grand scheme of things… when you die… you won’t be thinking of that roll of chips. Pretty sure.
I can't leave either. I don't want to anyway. I don't post like I did a few years ago but I need to be able to talk or vent to people who understand. I hope you won't leave but if you need to for health reasons, I understand.Fuck I saw this and instantly felt a lot worse:
I've been feeling really bad, sad and suicidal lately, and today I was supposed to have my weekly social worker meeting, but at the last second she suddenly changed the time from 3pm to 1pm, and of course it didn't work for me, so she cancelled the meeting. (It was a meeting where she comes to...sanctioned-suicide.org
Also, ducking in an FPS. I thought about leaving this site permanently. Logging off, closing all the tabs on the browser, deleting the bookmark, maybe pressing the self-ban button, and now I'm still here. This place has some kind of hypnotic effect on me. So many times I have thought "Now I'll leave permanently" and 12 hours later I haven't slept at all because I literally just spent 12 hours here.
I need to install some kind of website blocker that kicks me out of here.
I agree. I cant and don’t want to leave either. The site helps me too. The only way out of here for me is the graveyard. The suicidlaity is permanent now. Good to see you by the way. I hope you are doing ok. I enjoy seeing some of the old members even though not many are left. It’s a weird feeling to have been standing at the crossroads for so long watching others come and go. What’s even weirder is just spanning time and living like this now.I can't leave either. I don't want to anyway. I don't post like I did a few years ago but I need to be able to talk or vent to people who understand. I hope you won't leave but if you need to for health reasons, I understand.
I couldn’t access the site, either. There are a couple of functions that aren’t working for me now.Was this forum only for me down? Like several hours. I could not access this website. Noone mentioned it. Maybe I was the only one.
There are also a lot of bugs for me.
Yes the site was definitely down today for at least 5 hours.I couldn’t access the site, either. There are a couple of functions that aren’t working for me now.
I think the site is having some issues. Nothing to worry about.
I wonder how many people we cross paths with in everyday life that feel the way we do, or maybe are even on this (or another) site.
I wonder if there are a lot of us, or are we a tiny portion of society that thinks about, contemplates, or are actively planning their end of life.
If the forum were to go away it would totally screw a lot of people. It would cause more ctb. People depend on this forum and it has provided me with a lot of tools and info that are valuable. It is a safe place to escape or distract from the bullshit of society. Now we know that there are others out there like this too. It’s a shame how hard it would be for any new potential members to be able to find this place now and not even accessible in some areas supposedly.I worry this whole forum is dead or nearing death. There are so few places like this online and I need people like yourselves to help. Maybe I've just become unlucky again
Yeah that does sound scary, wish there were more sites like this (Not to bash on this site of course seems really nice so far).I dont think I would be able to find this place if it were to change names or anything like that. I’m not aware of any others like this and if there were I wouldn’t know how to find them.