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Dean

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Sep 10, 2018
48
I was thinking we could make a positive thinking thread as this website is overwhelmingly negative. While I believe that life is mostly suffering, there are good things too. Por favor no platitudes

  • I never know what tomorrow could bring. Maybe someone will find/invent a solution to my problems. Maybe a fairy godmother will appear like in Cinderella and magically fix my problems. Maybe I'll meet someone who will change my life and make me wonder why I was ever suicidal.
  • I'm going to die anyway in 60 or so years, and once I'm dead I won't remember or feel my suffering. I should tough out life to see what happens as maybe my suffering will end. People overwhelming report as they get older their happiness and self satisfaction increases.
  • I can chase whatever dreams I want. I can dance, I can write, I can read, I can do whatever I want and learn something new everyday.
  • Maybe I can help other people. Life isn't just about maximizing my happiness. If I can make the world a better place for others, my existence has meaning.
  • Maybe there is a higher power that will be upset if I end my life. Maybe some of us are meant to be pushed to the edge because it gives us a different perspective on life.
  • I am lucky that I'm not starving, have access to a computer, and have somewhat decent health. There are many people in the world that don't have these things.
 
Abel

Abel

Delusional
Sep 11, 2018
60
If I hang on long enough, maybe I'll finally be in a situation where I can get a dog...

Uh, yeah I know that probably sounds really weird, but I love dogs and have always dreamed of owning one. ...Though realistically I know it'll probably never happen because I can't even take care of myself, let alone a dog... But it's a nice little thought nonetheless.
 
Temporarilyabsurd

Temporarilyabsurd

NOISE:signal
Apr 27, 2018
439
If I hang on long enough, maybe I'll finally be in a situation where I can get a dog...

Uh, yeah I know that probably sounds really weird, but I love dogs and have always dreamed of owning one. ...Though realistically I know it'll probably never happen because I can't even take care of myself, let alone a dog... But it's a nice little thought nonetheless.


Actually totally relate .

I love Dogs and Cats .

Best memories of three generations of cats on the couch in front of the fire , all three of them brain melted in feline baked nirvana ... that joy and bliss is contagious .

Doggy dog ... they are a handful ( RESPONSIBILITY !!!!! ) so seem to me to be a signifier of 'livin' for keeps as it were .

If I'm ever ridin' with a pup , it may be dark thoughts are on the low volume , big time .

( grew up with a four legged sister . she is still in my heart . )

edit to add :

Someone I know has had dogs for life ... keeps them sane and all that normal stuff.
worth the hassle.
 
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samhelloall9

Experienced
Jul 16, 2018
297
I tel myself it's only a matter of time for when the time comes. But each passing day, makes it harder to tell myself "tomorrow may bring news I'm waiting on."
It's better than accepting it's not coming. Oh it'll come. I have to hope that.
 
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samhelloall9

Experienced
Jul 16, 2018
297
I also tell myself "it's only a matter of time." I hate the waiting game. But I have to play it, that waiting game... I've been playing it long enough, just as Judi Dench's M would say in Skyfall (2012).
 
bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,547
I'm done with coping. I know im fucked no matter what I do. I'm out of luck, out of energy, and out of time. At this point ctb'ing would be a flat out blessing and miracle. Idk how I'm going to do this.
 
windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
368
I think the best coping mechanism I have left is my favorite music. Listening to it or thinking of it is still pure joy. It holds the promise of everything good I used to think life could be. I am sure I'll be thinking of it as I die.

But I think that is about all. Life has just become so uncomfortable - physically and mentally. I don't care anymore about meaning and contribution. I think lots of things matter, because as long as there are beings who exist and suffer/might suffer, it matters that their well-being is supported. But - this area of thought isn't for me anymore.

Still, my music.
 
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lostinthedream

lostinthedream

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Sep 2, 2018
754
I play around with perspective... some days I approach life from the perspective of a lucid dream where i am awake in the dreamscape, others I consider that perhaps I am already dead and this is the afterlife.. others a computer simulation.. others that I am God.. others I go into full solipsism mode..