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cowie

Member
Oct 25, 2022
49
Hi, I was planning on CBTing with SN (which is almost here) sometime in the next two weeks.

Everything is a mess and I have nothing to look forward to.

Except I randomly met someone on Saturday, cooked dinner for him at his house Sunday and now we are having Thanksgiving together. I’m very confused. He is very much like the ideal man I had in my mind. I’m very confused now and hesitant to CBT. Everything else is still a mess but I might have a chance at real love for the first time in my life. I am still mentally preparing to CBT but honestly overwhelmed after being lonely for so long. I wanted to share the positive development and hope today goes well. Maybe there is still a chance at recovery? (I hope this is the right section for this post.)
 
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whywere

Enlightened
Jun 26, 2020
1,907
FANTASTIC!!!!

I am so very happy for you!! I am sitting down to Thanksgiving by myself, but reading your post warmed my heart and soul and gave me such a huge lift up in spirits.

Have a GREAT Thanksgiving with your new friend and you are truly such a loving and caring soul.

Just so WONDERFUL!

Walter
 
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LaVieEnRose

Specialist
Jul 23, 2022
371
Well, the good thing is that SN keeps for a while so there is no urgency to use it in that sense.

I hope it goes well. Maybe this will lead you to a life without CTB. It's not feasible to expect one person to eliminate all suicidal feelings, but feelings of connection and intimacy are vital for your psyche and if you feel those maybe it will help open doors to other positive ways of developing your life.
 
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SarRy

Student
Oct 5, 2022
155
Good for you. Yes, really. Don't get lost in your own head and remember to see him for who he is and not who you wish him to be. Still, that's great. It just goes to show that you never know what life will bring. I understand wanting to be prepared. Sometimes it makes it easier to try new things when you know you can escape.

Cheers, I hope this part of your life will bring you joy.
 
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Teddybear

Experienced
Nov 20, 2021
239
Well, I hope you are not bi-polar (I am) and so this change of development will last. A lucky partnership can turn everyone's life around and there was an era, when finding the right partner was considered more important, than all the Black Friday deals of Amazon combined (so looong ago).

So I wish you lasting sunshine on your path, but with a few clouds here and there. For life needs shade from time to time.
 
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Regen

Student
Aug 20, 2020
162
Ooohhh, that's wonderful!!! I wish I could find love too! You should give it a chance, it sounds great! I am very happy for this.
 
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cowie

Member
Oct 25, 2022
49
Thanks everyone for the kind comments. I had a wonderful evening and spent the night at his place. I learned more about him and we really get along. Obviously you don’t want to tie your entire reason to live on one person, so I’m trying not to do that. I am however appreciating these moments very much. They are much like what I have always dreamed of. There’s a part of me that says “well, better late than never! Maybe there’s a reason you were supposed to stumble into meeting him and this will lead to bigger and better things” and there’s another part that just feels irreparably broken. We will see what happens.
 
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