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I wanted to give this the venting prefix. Couldn't find it.

So I have nasty severe major depressive disorder. As is probably common here. I tried trintellix for three weeks....and nothing. Then I tried Vraylar for two weeks. I lost some sexual ability AND I got bad restless leg syndrome. It had me crying. So I gave up on that med before I even see my Dr again in a few days.

Vraylar sucked it really did. I called my mom at midnight last night to vent about it. I was crying. She has major depression to so she gets it. But then she told me today I scared her by saying "I love you" so often. She said I said it like four or five times in forty minutes. She said she maybe thought I was thinking of killing myself cause I said it so much. Like I might have been trying to say goodbye or something.

I know I say I love you more than most in my family generally and not just in crisis.

All comments are welcome. I'm not asking anything specific or nothing just venting.

So feel free to comment or ask anything you like.

I just super wish my suffering could end but apparently even according to drs it can't end. And I can't truly be helped. Idk I'm so freaking lost
 
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Well my Dr convinced me to get back on the Vraylar. But just sticking with the smallest dose. As opposed to stepping up the dose like we did before. And she prescribed me a handful of Xanax to handle any restless feelings if that happens again.

I did genuinely improve some on the med. So it makes sense to keep trying it. Who knows if the med did help or not though.

Fingers crossed. We shall see how it goes. I don't know.
 
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You need to try the medication for longer. 3 weeks is not enough time to give Trintillex. For example, I tried Prozac 20 mg for 12 weeks. It started helping at 5 weeks and helped more at 12 weeks, now I just started 40 mg as still pretty miserable. Just less bad than before Prozac. Does your doctor know what they are doing?! I highly recommend joining support groups for medication on FB - which are named for the different medications - then you can get support and learn from others to get through side effects/give them enough time to work. Good luck.
All medication can take 3 months to work, then raise dose ..
 
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First I wanna stress that this is just my perspective/opinion/reasoning. I totally recognize I could be wrong about anything and everything.

Yeah I know typically they say an anti-depressant takes 4-6 weeks to kick in. It's my understanding that ssri/snri should be tried for 8-12 weeks before trying another. But trintellix is atypical. I wasn't sure if it being atypical and based on what their website said if it could be different from the 4-6 week standard. I'm probably wrong there. But Trintellix website said it kicks in in 1-2 weeks. I'm not saying it can't take longer for trintellix. My dr flat out told me she didn't know what would work. And she left it up to me to try staying on trintellix longer or try something different. I'm not saying I'm right and I know it all. I'm only saying these are the reasons I was comfortable with trying something different. That and bipolar also runs in my family. I've only been ever diagnosed with MDD. But since I think mental diagnoses aren't entirely black and white and I do have a strong family history of bipolar I felt it kinda made sense to experiment with a bipolar med. I've also read on this website that depression meds can worsen bipolar. And I do have strong bipolar tenancies. For example when I'm not depressed I can tend to make bad high risk decisions. As well as have shit loads of energy. For example last summer I went to a lake with my row boat literally everyday all summer. I don't even have a truck or a boat trailer. I borrowed a friend to help me lift it on the roof of my corolla everyday and I'd play and row at the lake 6 hours a day after working a highly active running and jumping job for 7 hours a day. I've just never been to the point of only needing a few hours of sleep a day. If it weren't for that last part I'd likely be diagnosed bipolar, it's the only reason psychiatrists have said I'm not bipolar when I've brought it up and asked them. Maybe I'm way off there to and I have less on an understanding of bipolar than I think.

Considering I truly consider this process of finding a med to be genuinely guess and check (even with a dr) I think my dr knows as much as what she's doing as any other average dr. I could totally be wrong though. She's also just and NP not a dr. But I really like her a lot. I'm more comfortable with her than any other dr I've ever been to. It'd be more accurate to refer to her as a general practitioner. Maybe If we can't figure out something that works on me she'll give up and send me to a Psychiatrist.

There's so many stinking factors/variables in all of this it's scary frustrating.

In the past I've only tried meds once before. I wound up on a regimen of zoloft. abilify, and welbutrin. All I got was increased weight gain and ED lol. Twas not pleasant. I was on all those meds for 3-4 months. So it's likely safe to say those can be ruled out.

Ugh. This is too complex and too much guess work.
 

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