- Dec 16, 2021
Peaceful but still kind of scary at the same time… it gets easier each day though.
We all die. The outcome has never been in question, it is only a question of method and timing.Hmmm I used to be scared of ctb, mainly about what happens after death and death itself, but as time went by and shit happened and got accumulated I no longer fear these. Whatever happens, happens. We all die at one point. Death can't be any worse than what it is now.
That's my worst fear as well. The only thing that comforts me is that eventually we will all die and it will end.We all die. The outcome has never been in question, it is only a question of method and timing.
What scares me most is to live the next 20 years in agonizing pain, unable to move, or to lose the physical ability to carry out plans of suicide and be stuck as a vegetable, or in a wheelchair forever, without the power to end it all. My mother died a slow agonizing death from ALS, and something like that is what I most fear.
Death itself, no fear at all. Pain and suffering, lots of dread and fear.
I need a nice quiet peaceful way to slip away as painlessly as possible, given my current circumstances of constant pain.
That's my worst fear as well. The only thing that comforts me is that eventually we will all die and it will end.
I feel neither fear nor desire at this point. I can hold a knife to my throat and even hit myself with it and other things no problem, but I can't muster the energy to do anything with it.Peaceful but still kind of scary at the same time… it gets easier each day though.
It really is a cruel gig we are forced to feel such way.
It sickens me the people who spew philosophies like "you asked to come here as a higher self spiritual being in order to grow!"
Well if that's the case what a fucking stupid bastard my higher self must be an idiot "I know let's go to planet rape and ravage a everything to learn, yay! "