I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
I have really slid into despondency. I might try to go walking when it’s nighttime bc I can’t stand to be seen like this. I’m out of food yet I don’t feel up to having to go grocery shopping. I can’t wait till the rest of the stuff comes in the mail. I’m pretty desperate to ctb and especially b4 I break down and unable to function. I’ve got my rent for next week so I don’t really need to worry much about having to work b4 I’m ready to ctb. I kind of wish I had just gotten the other stuff at various stores but it was easier to just order it online. Hoping it will be here in next week or so. If it’s not here within 5 days I’m going to go hunt for the materials bc I’m that desperate to exit.