Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Pathetic || Just keep going
Jul 1, 2020
4,942
My thoughts are..... EVERYWHERE.

I want to move. I want out. I want to start my life. I can see it, taste it, feel it.
I just want to kms, nothing matters.
Just wait and then you can handle your belongings the way you want.
I can't kms at my grandfathers. Not after everything we've been through.
Do I want to keep going? Can I keep going? Just bury myself in work and pets.
But no, it feels so empty and pointless without you. How can I continue feeling hollow?
I'm so stuck. I don't want you back, I'm so f'en done. But I can't get you out of my mind
 
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Lone Wanderer

Student
Jul 28, 2022
106
I feel hollow. Like an empty shell gliding across the sea floor with no purpose but to be dragged around.
 
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FML_

FML_

-
Jun 26, 2022
49
Feeling like recovering... I need to go back and set everything right, regain all those lost years. It would be so good if I could fix my problems for once
 
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ejpikl

Member
Mar 21, 2022
12
just this weird sad chest pain and emptiness
feeling relieved that hopefully everything will be done soon
a bit annoyed that i'll have to tidy up everything so it's not too much of a hassle to clean up after but yknow
 
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Pathetic || Just keep going
Jul 1, 2020
4,942
I feel like kms no matter what.
You can't buy happiness. That all I'm going to be doing if I continue. It'll cost money to get my GED, for my meds, for college, for my bakery. And sure it might make me externally happy, but it's the internal sadness that eats you alive.
I can "get better" (cope enough I'm content with it), but my internal happiness left..
If you don't prop a cave up it comes collapsing in. This isn't any different. If the sadness is making me hollow inside, then the weight of the outside will just cave in.
 
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Zegers

Specialist
Dec 15, 2021
393
Life doesn't tire you out overnight.
You don't want to die overnight.
It's little things that accumulate over a long period of time and there comes a time when dislike your life, dislike the world and if you're not happy in a place, logically, you want to leave.
 
brood

brood

It's how I live, not how long I live.
Sep 4, 2019
38
Feeling particularly low this morning, I ache and can't get comfortable, breathless when I attempt to do anything, lack of feeling in my legs but constant pins and needles and the weather's crap. There's nothing to recommend getting old. I might not make it through today, I don't really want to.
 
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Pathetic || Just keep going
Jul 1, 2020
4,942
I want to kms but the driving force is sedated. I wonder if there's a way to wake it up.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Pathetic || Just keep going
Jul 1, 2020
4,942
"I think of you as a good friend going through hard times"
This... Makes me want to kms more (but I'm not gonna tell him that). I'm always going to be the friend going through hard times. I'm technically mentally disabled (or should I call it emotionally disabled? Lol). At least that's the way it feels like. I always have to be watched out for. My disorders will always flare up, it's a matter of when not if.
 
osako

osako

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
179
A mixture of feelings. Alone, numb-ish, disconnected, looking forward to having everything ready to ctb, so maybe in a weird way hopeful.
Somehow content or maybe resolute now that I’m preparing.
 
Yungire

Yungire

Rabbit Tank
Dec 3, 2020
1,243
As usual I stay up late, the night is so quiet but that in turn shortens my sleep. I seem more and more woeful as the months go by, if there is an afterlife, I wonder what my bestie thinks about me right now, does she blames me? Does she hate that I plan to do the same thing as her? In the end I couldn't be as good a friend to you as you were to me when it was most needed. I'm a useless daughter and a disgusting friend, It was never meant for me to be born and that's the way it should have been. I'm a failure and I'm sorry.
 
castler

castler

Enlightened
Jul 11, 2022
1,044
I'm so like space out man
Staring Bored To Death GIF
 
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