jodes2

jodes2

SN arrived!
Aug 28, 2022
1,305
I rely on other people completely. I feel so dependent and helpless
very bored. and hungry, yet the more i eat, the more the hunger increases...
I'm always bored too. I made a thread asking what sites people go to to waste time which helped me. It's a shame this forum is so quiet nowadays, I can't use it to completely fill my time anymore
 
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Nanako

Nanako

Experienced
Dec 24, 2018
236
I'm so anxious. Why does this have to be so hard? None of this is my fault, I did nothing to deserve this, so why is this happening to me? I'm not gonna be able to ctb, my family will find me before I can go, or I'll vomit everything and be forced to live the rest of my life with brain damage. Why why why?
 
Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
510
Im done. Just absolutely done with this all. Every week I'm given more reasons to go and it just feels like a joke at this point.

I really wanted to stick through this for my cat but I don't even think I can do that. I don't want to do another year of this, I'm tired and I've been completely broken down by everything and everyone around me. I'm over this.

It's time for me to get serious about going. I'm not doing this anymore.
 
Nessie

Nessie

Cynical
Aug 23, 2020
1,666
I am lonely and needy and sad and I don't want to be this way right now because I am not killing myself within the next few days and I do not want to be miserable until I die. I need some good distraction, but I'm out of ideas, and alcohol makes me want to message people and burden them with my sad neediness which is not nice. I need some solitary activity to distract me from this shit.
 
jodes2

jodes2

SN arrived!
Aug 28, 2022
1,305
Im lonely and needy and sad and I don't want to be this way right now because I am not killing myself within the next few days and I do not want to be miserable until I die. I need some good distraction, but I'm out of ideas, and alcohol makes me want to message people and burden them with my sad neediness which is not nice. I need some solitary activity to distract me from this shit.
I made a post in off topic section - online boredom cures, there were some helpful suggestions there for activities to occupy the mind
 
VirtualSnow

VirtualSnow

who knows
May 21, 2022
79
A lot of nerves, I have taken some pills (10.5mg of bromazepam, not much, but it's not like I had a lot left) that I hadn't touched in ages and I'm currently writing down the results just in case anyone finds them useful, I'm not sure if I should post them though, would they be really useful? I'm not an expert of any sort and they may not be too accurate.
 
Dead Ghost

Dead Ghost

Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
537
About what, if I may ask
I do things wrong unintentionally, I make a lot of mistakes and then I have to take responsibility for the consequences. I'm not talking about self-sabotage or anything like that, I'm just talking about everything that I try to do very carefully so that it goes well and that suddenly at the last minute it's a very difficult disaster to solve.
I have inadvertently put my paw back in and fear the consequences. And right now I'm getting really sad about it and I want to cry again.
I'm always afraid to do the things that have to be done because I often fear the consequences if they don't go well, and I usually complicate my life because of it.

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Faig les coses malament sense voler, m'equivoco molt i després m'he de fer responsable de les conseqüències. No parlo d'autosabotatge ni res d'això, només em refereixo a tot allò que miro de fer amb molta cura perquè surti bé i que de cop i volta en l'últim moment es un desastre molt difícil de resoldre.
He tornat a posar la pota sense voler i temo les conseqüències. I ara mateix passo a estar molt trist per això i torno a tenir ganes de plorar.
Sempre tinc por de fer les coses que s'han de fer perqué sovint temo les conseqüències de que no surtin bé, i habitualment em complico la vida per això.