I feel good that despite having a cruel family and untreatable childhood PTSD, and despite my mother and siblings being nasty to me for decades to date, despite all that, I remain a kind person. I've never responded with aggression or cruelty.
Compassion - despite the trauma and all the shitty things that have happened to me I still care for others and want to see people happy. Even if that means I have to be a sacrifice. When I see people enjoying their lives I don't get envious or sad. I don't wan't anyone to feel the way I do, all the fear and pain.