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StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
Outside of this SS what does everyone do all day? I know some people on here work, others do not...some go to school...etc.

As for me, I no longer work. I tend my garden, come on SS, watch mindless old tv shows from my youth, sometimes I read a book, I make stew for my cat Mouse-A-Roo (Mouse for short), I talk to some great people on Discord....and last but not least....I wait to die.

EDIT: I do not work...I just do match betting as a form of "work" but that is only an hour or two a day, I am not sure that counts as work.
 
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Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
Outside of this SS what does everyone do all day? I know some people on here work, others do not...some go to school...etc.

As for me, I no longer work. I tend my garden, come on SS, watch mindless old tv shows from my youth, sometimes I read a book, I make stew for my cat Mouse-A-Roo (Mouse for short), I talk to some great people on Discord....and last but not least....I wait to die.

There's a similar post if you're curious! https://sanctioned-suicide.org/threads/what-does-your-typical-day-look-like.4662/
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
I’ve considered it like tonight, but then without it I feel like I wouldn’t make it out of the safety of my room.
I remember that feeling... my issues come about at night time...when the world grows dark and silent....that it when it is hardest for me to fight my feelings of wanting to drink.

Living alone, I don't have the fear of leaving my room...just facing the outside world...it is far too painful at times.
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
I don't work or go to school. Nothing at all, really. I never even leave the house. My life is so destroyed that I'm unable to function, so I literally just sit there and space out. When I'm not on SS, I'm probably just mindlessly staring at something else. Hell, even if I AM on SS, I'm probably just mindlessly staring at the screen.
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
I don't work or go to school. Nothing at all, really. I never even leave the house. My life is so destroyed that I'm unable to function, so I literally just sit there and space out. When I'm not on SS, I'm probably just mindlessly staring at something else. Hell, even if I AM on SS, I'm probably just mindlessly staring at the screen.

I have those moments....where I just "come too" and realise and hour has gone by and I haven't moved just been lost somewhere else.
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
I have those moments....where I just "come too" and realise and hour has gone by and I haven't moved just been lost somewhere else.
Welcome to my life... I'm like that 24/7. Sometimes literally hours just disappear. The dissociation is so bad that I even get memory loss. Sometimes it feels like days have disappeared and I don't remember anything. There's nothing even to really remember......
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
Welcome to my life... I'm like that 24/7. Sometimes literally hours just disappear. The dissociation is so bad that I even get memory loss. Sometimes it feels like days have disappeared and I don't remember anything. There's nothing even to really remember......

I have the same issue, it is not as bad as it once was but after my loss, I literally lost weeks of my life and had no clue what happened, when I last ate, drank, slept, went out of my house, did anything. I couldn't even tell you when I had last showered or when I changed my clothes.... I still have these moments, I ended up having to start writing everything down as I went through the day so I could look back upon it to know anything.
 
Pointlessabyss

Pointlessabyss

Impulse will takeover one day...
Sep 17, 2018
294
I remember that feeling... my issues come about at night time...when the world grows dark and silent....that it when it is hardest for me to fight my feelings of wanting to drink.

Living alone, I don't have the fear of leaving my room...just facing the outside world...it is far too painful at times.

The problem is I had it this morning for the first time in years I felt anxious about leaving the safety of my bed... took me 45 minutes to talk myself around. I’ve been able to distract myself through the day.

But suppose everyone’s mind takes over when they are alone
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
The problem is I had it this morning for the first time in years I felt anxious about leaving the safety of my bed... took me 45 minutes to talk myself around. I’ve been able to distract myself through the day.

But suppose everyone’s mind takes over when they are alone
Being alone can do FUBAR things to one's mind but also having others around can make it worse....sometimes I just don't know.
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
Being alone can do FUBAR things to one's mind but also having others around can make it worse....sometimes I just don't know.
Being alone is definitely worse, I think. I know all about that. It's been many, many years. The mind just...…….goes off. My dissociation is so extreme that sometimes I feel like I am breaking from reality. I'm just not even here right now.
 
Pointlessabyss

Pointlessabyss

Impulse will takeover one day...
Sep 17, 2018
294
Being alone can do FUBAR things to one's mind but also having others around can make it worse....sometimes I just don't know.

I usually enjoy my own company, often go out for walks into the woods and feel at peace. Think it’s just a combination of things today that’s fucked me up! Suppose we all have good and bad days!

Today’s just another bad day!

If I had people around me now I’d just shut down and push them away, as I can I find it easier to communicate in writing other than words sometimes !

We are all just lost looking for a way out sometimes
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
Being alone is definitely worse, I think. I know all about that. It's been many, many years. The mind just...…….goes off. My dissociation is so extreme that sometimes I feel like I am breaking from reality. I'm just not even here right now.

I have been having that feeling a bit more recent...probably because I am sober and was in hospital with drugs but I just do not feel like I am here sometimes. It is like walking around and not being there in your body, like I am being control from somewhere else...it's odd and deeply disconcerting when I am trying to do normal day things out in public.
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
I usually enjoy my own company, often go out for walks into the woods and feel at peace. Think it’s just a combination of things today that’s fucked me up! Suppose we all have good and bad days!

Today’s just another bad day!

If I had people around me now I’d just shut down and push them away, as I can I find it easier to communicate in writing other than words sometimes !

We are all just lost looking for a way out sometimes

Sorry you are having a bad day, those are never fun. I find using words in the form of text works best for me as well. I always have.
 
T

Taylored

I've figured it out
Sep 20, 2018
321
This website or music. I frequently watch music videos like this though.
 
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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
417
I was working, and going to college but a lot of stuff happened one after another which lead me to quit my job and drop my classes. Now I stay home and take care of my puppy and do a lot of research here and other places about how I'm gonna ctb.
 
blueming

blueming

Memento mori
Sep 21, 2018
174
I mostly stay in bed watching tv/movies, listening to music and going on this site. On 'good' days I manage to get out of bed and might go to the cinema to see a movie (literally the only place I go to outside my house haha), but even just going out once drains my energy so much that I have to stay in bed again for the next month or so. Sometimes I do nothing, sometimes I have to do something, anything to distract myself. Oh and I also cross-stitch :)
 
Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
I mostly stay in bed watching tv/movies, listening to music and going on this site. On 'good' days I manage to get out of bed and might go to the cinema to see a movie (literally the only place I go to outside my house haha), but even just going out once drains my energy so much that I have to stay in bed again for the next month or so. Sometimes I do nothing, sometimes I have to do something, anything to distract myself. Oh and I also cross-stitch :)

Cross-stitch! Do you sell them on etsy or is it all just for personal fun?