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I'm so sorry Matt.
110mg of Apoquel (dog antibiotic) if I'm correct, and another med at the same time. This was a year ago and I'm relying on a video I took of it. I ended up feeling very tired and my stomach started hurting, so I went to the ER, the hospital got me signed up for a day program but didn't trust that stupid shit as I had been inpatient there before and it was absolutely awful, so I went to a University hospital and got into a "state of the art" psych ward.
Other times when I was way young or just super desperate I tried OD'ing on Tylenol or other forms, but that was worthless, obviously.
Sertraline, risperidone, sttratera, and other medications that I don't remember. I vomited all of them, and at that time I was alone, so no one noticed my state, maybe I survived because I didn't take enough dose.
I once tried to eat whole sticks of butter to see it it would be enough to clog my arteries and give me a heart attack. It didn’t work but my chest did feel weird for a few days. This was a few years ago though.