Mar 9, 2022

No suicidal ideation at all today, which is screwing with me. I have a super hard time dealing with any emotions not negative? I’m sure my mood will fluctuate again, but I’m just trying to enjoy my head being peaceful today for the first time in a long time.


Defective since birth
Jul 1, 2020
All of them XD bpd joke. Well at least the major ones. Happy because I have my SO and because of what @Someone123 said. Angry because my husband "made a joke". Sad because I live here and I'm not happy. Guilt/selfhate/ect....well let's not go into it.... It's another bpd thing that counter acts the "happy because I have my SO" 🤦‍♀️


Professor of not a lot
Aug 17, 2020
Uneasy calm.. I sat out in the sun, went for a swim in the sea, came home and for some reason i've been reading SS all afternoon.

Anxiety is low but i'm in a state of vegetate. I guess I have some alone time for first time in a while so i'm using it to just sort of 'be'.

I have the means to go but I won't go today. I need to think some more about my current situation. At least the sun is shining here!