not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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Extremely overwhelmed. I just want to be gone. If it wasn't for family and S.S. I would be long gone.
Sick of being a wage slave. I could cry but I don't think I can. Even if I could, it wouldn't change anything.
Supposed to be a man. I don't think that will ever happen.
I just want to hold someone. I don't even care if it's a woman or man. It's not about sex. I want to feel safe.
I don't know if I ever have my entire life. Not completely anyway.
I don't know how people do it.
I need to get some sleep and I'm not sure that will work. I just want to walk out in the middle of a thunderstorm, fall to my knees and scream. Maybe I would be lucky enough to get hit by lightning.
This misery is neverending. I Hate life!!!