Jul 11, 2021
Is there a word for tat feeling we have when the card castle we've been building for a long time goes down suddenly in less than a second? That's how I'm feeling...

Sadness.... Missing what I had. Too stupid to know how good it was.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Our mind is tricky when we look into the past with all the information we have now. There was no way for you to have these insights back then, you're not stupid, as much as we can feel ourselves like being. I know the pain is unavoidable, but you don't have to carry all the burden you're carrying right now.


Blargh... I'm done. Just can't anymore.
Jul 17, 2022
Over it. I have to wait until Friday night or Saturday night to CTB. Just need to be sure that I won't have any unexpected visitors who might find me and stop me. Victoria Police can kiss my arse.