Olá , seu post está em seu idioma nativo. Conheço esse problema com meu tradutor do google e também não consigo corrigi-lo. Eu só pensei que esta informação poderia ser importante para você ... muitas felicidades
Hopelessness about my current situation and a longlasting sorrow thinking about all my life up to this depressing point. There's also that 'alien' feeling of not really belonging anywhere or with anyone, and the following fear that if (if) I'm even able to recover and live I'll be miserable because of my traumas forever. I can't bond.
Senti un sentimiento repugnante al ver metodos de suicidio hoy hable con migo frente al espejo me dije a mi mismo que mi problema tiene solucion pero mi cabeza es muy rigida para aceptar el cambio entonces me es muy dificil no caer en pensamientos negativos, actualemente empeze a tomar antidepresivos y aceite de cannabis me estan ayudando pero siento q lo q tengo q aceptar es muy grande para mi mente tan rigida lo peor es q yo lo elegi y ahora no hay vuelta atras
My last hope was to move to another country and start something new but i won't be able to do that so there is no hope and you have to deal that your life is basically over, apart from that, health is getting worse and have less and less energy, it's like time to leave, i have the feeling for years.
Today...possibly fear. Fear that my physical health will degrade further, that I'll be capable of less than now, that future me will see present me as having wasted time I was actually capable of things that I later won't be.
loneliness. i miss having people that genuinely care about me, ive been breaking every potential strong link i could've possibly have with people my entire life, and now i don't know how to have those meaningful friendships anymore. it hurts my feelings thinking i might ctb without experiencing that connection with someone.
I would have to say the strongest feeling I've been feeling today would be, emptiness and the feeling of being tired they were both pretty strong. I am just so tired not just physically but mentally and I've been tired in this way for a year now and it's not getting better at all which sucks. But this feeling of emptiness I've felt this way sense I was 10, not getting any better but worse actually. I just think my depression might be hitting it's peak and not in a good way, if there ever was one.