Apathy, I really don't care. It's how I generally feel. I'm working and studying, I could have a future, but it doesn't seem to matter, in the sense that relationships with people aren't worthy of pursuing, that culture sucks, that life perhaps in general has been horrible for mankind, that we are condemned until death frees us. Maybe it's all a test and the afterlife is good, God is what keeps me from killing myself, I see how I feel reflected in the Bible, Ecclesiastes, etc. and think it might hold the answer to all of this, so I keep struggling
Happiness, as I have been so very busy with work and have not been on SS for over a month and I truly missed each and every member. Everyone here is like family to/for me, as I have no family nor friends, and I care and love everyone here.