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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Joined
Feb 10, 2020
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My next big move is to brace myself for E3 next week and secretly hope that almost all of the game announcements suck so that I won’t be stuck being alive for too long next year.
 
MYStERY_Man

MYStERY_Man

The 't' is silent
Joined
Jul 15, 2020
Messages
212
Moving out. Ideally, back to college. But even if I don’t make it and I still find myself stuck in this town, as long as I keep my current job, I'd like to get my own place next year.
 
Shadowrider

Shadowrider

Student
Joined
Jan 26, 2021
Messages
178
Giving up this stupid, dangerous weight loss thing that's equivalent to an indirect attempt to CTB.

(I kindly ask everyone not to say out the ugly A-word, I hate hearing or reading it. Crap enough that I am the exact contrary of the stereotypes so many people seem to have about your average A-word patient - a trendy teenage girl who began dieting just to look like the models on magazine covers - and so I feel even more ridiculous for qualifying to the A-word.)

Not eating at all, or dieting like crazy is a "good" distraction from despair and suicidal thoughts, also satisfies my longing for fading/flying away. But I ended up being even more desperate and suicidal than before. Constant weight loss does something to your brain, not only to your body. So if I really don't want to catch the bus, I have twice as much motivation to stop losing weight.
 
WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Joined
Mar 22, 2020
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Maybe a laptop or a PS5 (it should be the laptop because if my gaming pc breaks down somehow, I won't be able to work properly. Teaching from my cellphone sucks!!)
 
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Shadowrider

Shadowrider

Student
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WornOutLife said:
Maybe a laptop or a PS5 (it should be the laptop because if my gaming pc breaks down somehow, I won't be able to work properly. Teaching from my cellphone sucks!!)
Yes, it's always good to have an extra laptop in the closet. I think obtaining an old laptop for a ridiculous price and giving it a new life does worth the effort! (I am writing this post on a 13-year-old laptop, have two candidates that still need fixing. Just in case my stationary machine dies.)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Living dead girl
Joined
Sep 24, 2020
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I don’t really have plans to do much, I mostly just spend the time hoping I fall into an eternal sleep. I would love to buy another pet but I don’t think that would be possible.
 
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Broken Buzz

Broken Buzz

Space Ranger
Joined
Apr 30, 2021
Messages
50
I got a letter from a former client some weeks ago thanking me for saving her life. She had been suffering from a chronic illness that meant she could barely eat; various doctors and specialists had ignored or dismissed her. I put her right. A year on she's still making progress, it made me quite emotional actually. I realise I've done a tiny bit of good for the world and my next move is to establish a research platform to help more people who have no other hope.

Whether or not I ever get there is a different matter, courtesy of a resident psychopath, life hasn't been kind to me the past few weeks.
 
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Conk

Conk

Member
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May 29, 2021
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9
I dont really know what would be my next move, my country is in a full social crisis (Riots , protest, etc), everything is against me, there is nothing i can do even if i wanted too.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Enlightened
Joined
Feb 13, 2020
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Making coffee.

For now that's all the moving I do. It's to hot :/
 
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PartlyHuman

Sorry for my English
Joined
Jan 10, 2021
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I went to psychiatrist, got diagnosed and prescription for antidepressants. Next big move is to hope they work and I won't ctb. Also need to try to study properly and look for some job...
 
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paulstrong

paulstrong

Specialist
Joined
May 5, 2020
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324
Well, I travelled the north of Scotland, got a hair transplant in London. So those are checked of my list. My next big move is to win the lottery and get the hell out of this village. Haha. I can still dream can't I?
 
Red

Red

Mage
Joined
Apr 10, 2019
Messages
500
Next big move is getting married. It’s odd though, planning it and thinking about it and still passively wishing to just be swiftly snuffed out nearly every single day lol

I love my husband to be and know that he’s a good guy. I don’t want to hurt him by ctb so just plodding on day to day, trying to ignore being sore, unwell and invalidated but ultimately feeling useless and helpless. Not actively planning anything but hoping so hard that the end might finally be close, somehow. It’s nice to kind of look forward to something but also dreading it too - lots of pressure and it’s going to be a long, uncomfortable day, full of judgment and potential for drama…

Holiday after. Travelling round as a giggling newly wed that is, unbeknownst to most, internally vaguely wishing to drop dead every few minutes :pfff:

I keep thinking that, the minute that I actually start loving life instead of finding it so hard, I’ll just die. Keep thinking that I should at least try to “fake it to make it”; pretending to love life so that that contrary force that has kept me living through so much miserable crap will take notice and whip it out from under me for good.

It’s proving quite difficult to fool, however.
 
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Sleepdrifter

Member
Joined
Jun 22, 2020
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19
I'm torn between making an honest effort with life and giving up. Would like to become a technician however that depends on getting an opportunity for training. May get a job here or move again for a job. I don't know. Don't care.
 
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pulltheline

pulltheline

:(
Joined
May 16, 2021
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ive already moved out of one home and to another. neither are great, the first was abusive but it was my home. this one isn't home and its not nice here. im planning on moving out of here in september, when theres more options for me. im getting help from an organisation who said they could look into that for me because i dont want to go back to the first home and i dont want to be here long-term. maybe i'll get my safe space soon
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Joined
Feb 18, 2019
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I've been out of depression 2 years - check.
I've got my own place, small credit - check.
I'm still single - check.
I've got a job - check.

I could learn something for a career boost.
I could grow shrooms.
Continue eating homemade probiotics.

My next big move?
Trying to produce a candy? Or building a webapplication for some social interaction..... But in reality I've must put feet on the ground, I really need to clean and organize my house first, and pay a debt.