BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
My dad has always said he'll never forgive, my mum's lost 2 sons already, one through suicide. My immediate family would probably be pissed off, my half siblings would probably understand. My half sister even said to me she wouldn't be surprised if I did it. But if anyone is truly surprised then it's on them, I show all the signs, I'm dead inside and surely that shows.
 
skyofAuroras

skyofAuroras

-
Apr 10, 2018
136
I think I would have all sorts of reactions. Some would think in selfish and a coward. Those who I really knew me wouldn't be surprised. The few that knew the best would probably feel sorry for me. Of course some people would be upset.
 
Jon86

Jon86

Specialist
Apr 9, 2018
371
I honestly think most would understand. Some, mostly the people who I haven't been in contact with in years would possibly see me as selfish etc. but i'm so far removed from these people it doesn't matter.

The only people I really care about are my family and 2 or 3 close friends I grew up with but never see anymore.
 
D

DeadManWalking

Member
Jul 9, 2018
10
As my depression drags on and on, I've become pretty unpleasant to be around. And the older you get, the less sympathy people have for people with mental illness. I'm pretty confident my parents and close friends will be devastated, and there's nothing I can really do about that, but for everyone else, I think there'd be a mix of "I'm glad he's not in pain anymore" and "Serves him right, what a selfish asshole".

However, I'm not doing this for other people's sympathy, or because of other people. I'm doing it because there isn't a future for me. I continue to consider and think about how my decision will affect the few people I love and care about.
 
Gray Wounds

Gray Wounds

A Phantasmagoria
Jun 27, 2018
513
Most will be happy about it.
But it'll be tough for those who tried, for those two who tried to pull me away from this.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Final Escape
FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,794
No one knows me. I have no family or friends. I'll just be rotting meat in the forest or at a beach. I'm trying to set it up so that my body doesn't disturb anyone who might otherwise have to clean up after me. This is the big blessing of being a nomad pariah. No guilt trips. No messages to have to leave behind.
 
FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,794
As my depression drags on and on, I've become pretty unpleasant to be around. And the older you get, the less sympathy people have for people with mental illness. ... I'm doing it because there isn't a future for me.

Agreed x 100. Apathy and disdain are the rewards we get for following the instruction to hold on.
 
MortDeVivre

MortDeVivre

"If a battle cannot be won, do not fight it."
May 31, 2018
140
My mother (whom I live with and who is one of the reasons behind my decision) might not understand. My father (who used to abuse my mother verbally before they separated) will probably think I made the right choice. My extended family (whom I almost never interact with) won't think much about it. Same for my high school acquaintances, if they even learn about it (every tie I had with them ended up being cut one way or another). I give everyone one month tops before they forget about it.
 
F

Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,354
They will think the usual stuff. She was batshit crazy, I don’t think it will surprise most people that know me. They will be like, yea she was a troubled pathetic soul lol! It was for the best. I think some people will probably be relieved and celebrating. Because I’m keeping them in limbo and people hate that shit. They want u to either be doing good or stop having to worry about u being in that limbo place where they know u aren’t doing good and u might kill yourself. That makes people uncomfortable.
 
thetwilightzone

thetwilightzone

-
Jul 14, 2018
307
Don't care. They told me that "The world owes you nothing" so therefore I owe them nothing, that includes my life. Don't care how devastated or traumatized they are, they deserve every bit of suffering.
 
N

nuclearsnake

Student
Jul 11, 2018
147
I think my family will be too busy blaming and fighting each other to judge me. I hope everyone else will understand and accept my decision.
 
Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,286
I think my family will be too busy blaming and fighting each other to judge me. I hope everyone else will understand and accept my decision.
How many in your family do you think would be at your funeral?
 
N

nuclearsnake

Student
Jul 11, 2018
147
How many in your family do you think would be at your funeral?

Quite a few, probably. Some out of obligation though. I wouldn't be surprised if a few of them end up yelling at each other and start making accusations. My family is nutso.
 
Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
633
None, since I literally don't know anyone. My parents, my brother, and a few estranged relatives, are the only people alive who are aware of my existence. Out of those few, I highly doubt any of them would have any harsh judgements for me after my death/suicide. My parents world be sad, obviously, but I know for a fact that, beneath their grief, they'd understand. My brother would more than likely be indifferent I'd imagine since he and I have never been very close. At all. Our relationship has always been neutral porridge, basically, so I'm skeptical whether he'd have strong feelings about it either way. As far as relatives are concerned, it's hard to say. If it's anything though, I'll probably end up being showered with posthumous sympathy & understanding, while all the bitter condemnation would be saved for my mother, since all my relatives (and even my father, to some extent) were, and still are as far as I know, utterly convinced that she's the sole reason for how "shitty" my life was and, consequently, the reason why I killed myself. My death would just get lost in the shuffle of that whole bullshit, essentially.

6b96ec79c1b4b3a0fc884eca6ea9e5b9d5c05df53f62d50b79ec7ff9525463a2.jpg
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: Smilla and skitliv

Similar threads