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archduke

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Physical harm, stealing, unsafe sex, spending excessive money, ruining relationships on purpose, drugs and alcohol, etc...

For me I have really enjoyed cutting my face and arms, and punching my eyes over and over again. I don't know why but those two bring me the most release. I can't really cut my face anymore because at this point people will be suspicious of it. I also have a lot of unsafe and risky sexual activity and I waste all of my money away. I also might try meth soon as I've been offered before and I know where to get it. Who knows... I'd like to hear what you guys do

No judgements here
 
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As often as we try to remind people not to engage in SH, it's hard to admit that it isn't weirdly relieving.

I often use alcohol and marijuana to deal with the stress. I've been marking my body over the last couple years by doing baby cuts, but honestly it's at that point where I dont get much from it anymore.
Recently I started taking a metal rod to my ribs and face. My face I'll only hurt mildly, but man I love the bruising that comes with the impacts. Also sometimes I'll set up a date just to cancel for that rush of irresponsibility.
 
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I carved the word ‘cunt’ into my leg with a sharpened toothpick, and the resulting scar is still legible.

I also jumped off of a four story building and nearly crippled myself in the process.

I am so depressed from my injuries that I lie in bed all day and refuse to get up, unless it’s to use the restroom, despite the long-term damage that the lack of movement will inevitably cause my body.

I often wait until my bladder feels as though it’s about to explode before using the toilet in the hope that the prolonged urinary retention slowly damages my kidneys.

I refuse to eat solid food, and am attempting (rather unsuccessfully) at gradually starving myself via only consuming a minimal daily intake of Ensure shakes, which currently serve as my only source of nutrients.

I just want to die. I just want out of this daily Hell that some here still refer to as “life”.
 
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I used to cut and burn myself, to the point I've had multiple surgeries to repair damage from self harm. Then I crossed over to binge-purging instead. I binge and purge everyday and starve myself the rest of the time. I also shoplift a lot and sell videos of myself doing disgusting things. I use drugs but I don't consider that to be self-harming behaviour in my case.
 
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self mutilation, self cannibalism, anorexia, sleep deprivation, ill smash my head off walls sometimes or punch myself in the face to feel pain. i drink my blood...occasionally ill break a bone to remind myself im alive
 

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ErzsebetBATHORY said:
self mutilation, self cannibalism, anorexia, sleep deprivation, ill smash my head off walls sometimes or punch myself in the face to feel pain. i drink my blood...occasionally ill break a bone to remind myself im alive
Maybe you have "Lesch–Nyhan syndrome"? I sympathize with your pain
 
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Life_and_Death

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Conciously. Cutting my wrist

Unconciously (mostly not within my control /extremely difficult to control). Bashing my head off stuff seems to be my favorite. Walls, books, cake pan (the dent is still there to the day XD), stew pot, my shoulder i think broken a plastic panel in a vehicle, windows, its mostly walls though.
My other favorite seems to be scratching. I dont think its that bad but some skin does get removed and it puffs up/turns red like scratches do.
Theres also the time i scratched my leg with a knife. im starting to think those scars are permanent. It also worked out perfectly that i only did 2 out of 3, the other one was legitimately my cat and it looks exactly the same. So very few know.
 
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ErzsebetBATHORY said:
self cannibalism
What have you eaten? I'd hesitate to ask anyone else this question, but something tells me you won't mind answering
 
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ErzsebetBATHORY

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hotelbeneathground said:
What have you eaten? I'd hesitate to ask anyone else this question, but something tells me you won't mind answering
i cut little slices of meat off my inner thighs every few days and eat it raw. i eat my scabs and will cut off scar tissue from my self,.
orlandom said:
Maybe you have "Lesch–Nyhan syndrome"? I sympathize with your pain
thank you. much love ^update-haha yeah that sounds like me. im a transgirl, not a boi tho. it sez it affects mostly bois. maybe the boi side of me has it. ill never know.
 
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Werewolf. said:
If you got any tips to quit, hmu.
Nope, haven't been able to quit in almost 40 years. I also used to shoplift stupid cheap shit, never thought that was a form of SH too
 
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orlandom said:
Maybe you have "Lesch–Nyhan syndrome"? I sympathize with your pain
Wow, please do your research before suggesting things like this. I can guarantee OP does not have Lesch-Nyhan Syndrome, lol. This is a very rare and severe genetic disease and sufferers have a life expectancy of 20-25, even with treatment. You can't just throw diagnosies around like that, omfg
hotelbeneathground said:
Nope, haven't been able to quit in almost 40 years. I also used to shoplift stupid cheap shit, never thought that was a form of SH too
It's not, it can certainly be considered self-sabotaging or self-destructive behaviour, but it is not self harm.
 
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ErzsebetBATHORY

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poisonedminds said:
Wow, please do your research before suggesting things like this. I can guarantee OP does not have Lesch-Nyhan Syndrome, lol. This is a very rare and severe genetic disease and sufferers have a life expectancy of 20-25, even with treatment. You can't just throw diagnosies around like that, omfg

It's not, it can certainly be considered self-sabotaging or self-destructive behaviour, but it is not self harm.
yeah its more of a choice. i just tried it and liked it., i doubt its a syndrome in me
 
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Sorry. I didn't want to say something bad. Yes, I haven't done the research properly. Sorry anyway.
 
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The occasional drops of hope and fanciful daydreams that cloud my mind.

That and spicy food.
 
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Dr Iron Arc said:
The occasional drops of hope and fanciful daydreams that cloud my mind.
Let's stop stretching the definition of SH before people who actually suffer from it have a justified fit :hihi:
 
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hotelbeneathground said:
Let's stop stretching the definition of SH before people who actually suffer from it have a justified fit :hihi:
They can take comfort in the fact that I’m too cowardly and pathetic to do anything considered to be physical self harm besides occasionally picking scabs which apparently counts.

Besides, emotional pain registers the same on the brain as physical pain can so why question the fact that deliberately making myself miserable can’t be a form of self harm?
 
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Dr Iron Arc said:
Besides, emotional pain registers the same on the brain as physical pain can so why question the fact that deliberately making myself miserable can’t be a form of self harm?
I don't care how you define SH, but someone who suffers from a more serious form of it might
 
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Banging my head against the wall and burning my hands. I'm too much of a coward to cut myself
 
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Cutting, burning, and alcohol. I made a promise to stop, but I no longer give a shit. The person I made a promise to has broken many promises now.
 
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hotelbeneathground said:
I don't care how you define SH, but someone who suffers from a more serious form of it might
Well hopefully that someone realizes it’s not a contest to see who can squeeze the most pain out of themselves and that nobody gets to police something as sensitive as self harm no matter what form it takes. Just because some method doesn’t sound that bad to them, I think they’d know that the sentiments behind it are likely still there all the same.

And besides even if they do have a problem with me then again, they can take the high road knowing they’re braver than I am or whatever.
 
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Drugs, then alcohol, and pills until my liver starts screaming. This is mostly recklessness rather than self-harm itself, the few minutes when I'm not feeling like shit are actually worth the pain that comes after.

what's actually self harm is the fact I've also been smoking a lot of cigarrettes, actually went from smoking to vaping and now I'm smoking again, figured it's far more harmful this way.
 
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As someone who has self harmed with knives and lighters since I was 11 I'd say its something I do more than something I suffer from. I've done some pretty messed up stuff to myself but I think that mental self harm is just as valid as what I do. Just because it's less quantifiable doesn't make it less valid.
I do find it totally crazy that people on a suicide website think self harm is taboo and hate anyone mentioning it. I've done some bad stuff and people think I'm a crazy bastard but I hear what other people manage and I'm like wow, what a crazy effin bastard
 
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i tend to hit myself with whatever i have; my hands, an item. i like using razors because it doesn’t hurt as much while it’s happening because it goes numb but then the pain stays around for a few days while the skin is raw. i like having to walk around and pretend it doesn’t hurt. besides that, i push people away, especially the people i’m most happy with and care about most. a lot of the time i don’t eat or if i do, i purge. procrastinating work is a big one for me, so i get people to shout at me. still never had a diagnosis of anything, doctors don’t seem to care.
 
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I used to burn,cut,pull my hair, and bruise myself. Haven't self harmed in a couple of years though. Out of all the self harm methods cutting fucked me up the most given that I now have scars from the habit even after a decade(10 years) has passed.
 
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I only ever self harmed once, when I got locked in a mental hospital. I put cuts all over my left arm.
 
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