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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
221
And I'm not talking about some bullshit "Visualize your dreams, now achieve your dreams!" I mean if you had an omnipotent magic wand with unlimited uses, what would it take for you to never dream about catching the bus again?

I'll start. I would have to start life over. I've made a lot of terrible choices that I can't reverse. I would get away from my terrible parents as soon as I can, I'd avoid a lot of toxic friendships, I wouldn't sacrifice so much for fake people who were laughing at me behind my back, and I would get a better support system much earlier in life. If I could transfer my memories into my four-year old body, I'd work to be happy.

Short of that, I think I'll always be planning my suicide. Sometimes it's just in the back of my head, and sometimes it's the only thought process I can manage.
 
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Mashedout

Member
Nov 25, 2020
67
A different reality, with a completely different set of rules for conciousness; one where it wasn't necessary to kill in order to exist. I'll never be happy here no matter what trivial changes take place in this brief human time. I wouldn't want to be either, that would mean I was cosigning all the fucked shit happening here.
 
LeavingForever

LeavingForever

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Sep 24, 2020
7,563
I think for me, there would be nothing. I simply do not want to exist, nothing would ever make me want to live. I think in my case, no matter what my circumstances were I would still feel empty. I have no interest in living. I do not understand how anyone could be happy in a world where there is so much suffering, they must be delusional.
 
freemindnsoul

freemindnsoul

Wizard
Sep 29, 2021
649
That is all I need: find a very stable job (e.g. think government) with good salary and reasonable hours 30-36 hours a week. The job needs to provide free mental healthcare, standard healthcare, and dental care.

This will help me overcome reasons for ctb:
- I will be able to buy a small house for myself and feel secure in the same house in the same city for many years
- I will be able to address health issues
- I will be able pursue and develop interests for stuff outside work (e.g. volunteer work, gym, cosmetic surgeries, going outdoors, casual relationships)
 
Xeroornothing

Xeroornothing

Global Mod “Ye shall be as gods..🐍🍎”
Jun 22, 2021
2,091
I know that nothing can makes me happy. I am flawed and so the rest of the world to achieve any tangible level of sustained happiness. Even if I was so rich, I would still feel like shit to learn there are so many unhappy souls in the world. Also if I had things worth living for in life like a partner or money, I would worry so much about being left, being loved for my money only, run out of it. Etc…

It is a no win situation.
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

FUBAR
Jan 26, 2021
5,171
What would it take for you to be happy?
I can't form real relationships, so it would have to be android gf:
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Xeroornothing

Xeroornothing

Global Mod “Ye shall be as gods..🐍🍎”
Jun 22, 2021
2,091
Be born in a different country & be exposed to different philosophies.
There is no escape from the ever spreading consumerist religion of the world. All philosophies and ideologies wont matter at all any longer.
 
t-rex

t-rex

Member
Jan 8, 2022
54
Long term, I'm not sure. Like @FuneralCry I don't really have any goals or aspirations. Depression has robbed me of that.

Short term, I would like to escape to a remote Buddhist monastery and live and work as a layperson there for a few years, growing in discipline and virtue while living communally and with only very simple needs. I want to strip my life down to its bare elements and sharpen my mind and soul in an encouraging environment around others who are doing the same.

After a year or two or three, hopefully I've experienced such peace and clarity that I'll develop some aspirations and know how to re-enter the world and what to do.

The only thing stopping me from doing this now is my terrible depression. I cry nearly all the time, have no energy, etc. I probably wouldn't be a very good community member and they cannot provide psychiatric services at a monastery. My latest plan to is try and get ECT, and hope that makes me well enough that I can actually begin to execute on this plan. I am lucky enough to have the freedom (no partner, no kids) and money saved to be able to do this if I can some baseline level of mental health first.
 
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Belljar

Member
Nov 13, 2021
51
I would get a house by the ocean. But I'd still be traumatized so probably still want to die.
 
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Xeroornothing

Xeroornothing

Global Mod “Ye shall be as gods..🐍🍎”
Jun 22, 2021
2,091
Long term, I'm not sure. Like @FuneralCry I don't really have any goals or aspirations. Depression as robbed me of that.

Short term, I would like to escape to a remote Buddhist monastery and live and work as a layperson there for a few years, growing in discipline and virtue while living communally and with only very simple needs. I want to strip my life down to its bare elements and sharpen my mind and soul in an encouraging environment around others who are doing the same.

After a year or two or three, hopefully I've experienced such peace and clarity that I'll develop some aspirations and know how to re-enter the world and what to do.

The only thing stopping me from doing this now is my terrible depression. I cry nearly all the time, have no energy, etc. I probably wouldn't be a very good community member and they cannot provide psychiatric services at a monastery. My latest plan to is try and get ECT, and hope that makes me well enough that I can actually begin to execute on this plan. I am lucky enough to have the freedom (no partner, no kids) and money saved to be able to do this if I can some baseline level of mental health first.
Wouldnt living in monestary life style make you even more unable to blend in back to the real world when you realize that all the peacefulness you gain from it, is all that you need or can salvage from being alive?
 
t-rex

t-rex

Member
Jan 8, 2022
54
Wouldnt living in monestary life style make you even more unable to blend in back to the real world when you realize that all the peacefulness you gain from it, is all that you need or can salvage from being alive?
It's possible. I'm sure that's what my family thinks, or is afraid of. Afraid because I might decide I need to stay forever...

I think at some point I would feel guilty about not contributing more to the world, and would come back to the real world with some new goals and aspirations. At least I hope so. If that doesn't happen and I'm happy to practice in the monastery I may just stay. I really have no idea what the experience will bring me.
 
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WonderingSoul

WonderingSoul

Gamer
Dec 15, 2021
47
Quite the amount of things for me would be: Friends I can trust without them going behind my back, a lot of money, a therapist who doesn't zone out when I speak to them, to be able to collect video games, and an ACTUAL non abusive family.
 
Sanva

Sanva

Member
Dec 10, 2021
95
I feel like i would be happy if I didn't have anxiety and if i had friends that loved me. bonus points if i could live somewhere where it's warm and sunny most of the time, with enough money so i don't have to work.
 
Xeroornothing

Xeroornothing

Global Mod “Ye shall be as gods..🐍🍎”
Jun 22, 2021
2,091
I know that nothing can makes me happy. I am flawed and so the rest of the world to achieve any tangible level of sustained happiness. Even if I was so rich, I would still feel like shit to learn there are so many unhappy souls in the world. Also if I had things worth living for in life like a partner or money, I would worry so much about being left, being loved for my money only, run out of it. Etc…

It is a no win situation.
Feeling euphoric is being happy. The smallest irritant in life like a mosquito flying on your face, a spilling a glass of wine on your expensive sweater, hitting your pinky toe by the furniture can ruin your mood and the day for you even when you have everything possible to be happy.
 
Somber

Somber

Student
Jan 6, 2022
192
Short term, I would like to escape to a remote Buddhist monastery and live and work as a layperson there for a few years, growing in discipline and virtue while living communally and with only very simple needs. I want to strip my life down to its bare elements and sharpen my mind and soul in an encouraging environment around others who are doing the same.

After a year or two or three, hopefully I've experienced such peace and clarity that I'll develop some aspirations and know how to re-enter the world and what to do.
Sounds like something you could actually achieve. Which is super positive! 👍
 
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Alcoholic Teletubby

Alcoholic Teletubby

Rip in piss
Jan 10, 2022
16
Independence, self-reliance, the absence of intrusive thoughts, and self-assurance.

On the side, a few close friends.

(If I were to be completely honest and be given anything I desired, I'd pop out of existence. I suppose it's all part of the fantasy.)
 
Hirokami

Hirokami

What if it were all just a dream?
Feb 21, 2021
275
Consistent financial stability, for one. I don't have to be rich, but if I could get around six figures a year, that would be great. I'd also remove problematic people from my life, too, as well as get rid of all of my mental disorders.
 
ncmxm

ncmxm

Member
Jun 9, 2021
81
Having a different face, being forever young, having an unlimited amount of money, and being intelligent and talented
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,321
I would probably use such power to disperse my misery by spreading it to other people and allowing this power to absolutely corrupt me. I’d set myself at the top of every hierarchy and force everyone into servitude of me. Anyone who would oppose me would be immediately cast out to be tortured for the rest of their lives. There would be no mercy. CTB would at least be looked upon more favorably by the majority of the world though because I will ensure that even the happiest of normies will feel the crushing sense of futility and frustration that already plagued me.

Good thing I’m too lazy to ever come close to actually achieving this.
 
gottago222

gottago222

Student
Dec 21, 2021
154
honestly not much even rich people with supportive relationships have problems and stessors i just dont want to exist so i can never feel again