• Welcome to SanctionedSuicide, a pro-choice forum for the discussion of mental illness and suicide. Please read our rules and our Principles.
    If you are in need of immediate support, please call the Samaritans hotline at (877) 870-4673, or check our recovery resources.

Simba

Simba

Missunderstood Potato
Joined
Dec 9, 2018
Messages
208
That people may not wanna talk to me and FT26 and stop SS people and stuff
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Dead Meat
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Desire=half of life. Indifference=half of death.
Joined
Jun 22, 2020
Messages
4,840
I'm feeling better and healthier every day, which is giving me doubts about my need/desire to ctb.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Dead Meat
littlelungs

littlelungs

Experienced
Joined
Oct 21, 2018
Messages
209
I hate how fucking long most of my posts are. It makes me feel like such a self-indulgent piece of shit and I don't know who would actually be interested in reading what I have to say. I don't ever expect anyone to read it or react to it or whatever, because it's all the same shit with me.

Of course, I don't feel this way about anyone else AT ALL – I love reading other people's posts and getting some insight as to what's going on in their lives. I only feel this way towards myself.

I try to keep my posts as short and sweet as I can, but my mind is such a busy place and I genuinely don't know how else to express myself aside from doing it through a written stream of blah blah fucking-blah.
 
Luchs

Luchs

kristallene Bergluft über verfallener Gruft
Joined
Aug 20, 2019
Messages
410
Life sucks said:
The pain and being tired as usual.
Everything getting worse. I had a period from 2016 to 2019 when everything felt like it'll be ok again in the future, but now all that keeps me sane is memories and nostalgia.
 
Celerity

Celerity

Enlightened
Joined
Jan 24, 2021
Messages
1,452
Man’s inhumanity to man. In a completely indifferent universe, we are the only possible source of Good and yet we still treat each other like shit.

I’m starting to think Ted Kaczynski (the Unabomber) was onto something with thinking civilization was a mistake. Our hunter gatherer ancestors were no angels, but I don’t see any way that this ends well. The larger and more dispersed our civilization becomes, the more liars, thieves, and psychopaths thrive. It’s not rocket science to see how such a group of people will collapse.

Empathy is a liability now, honesty often a mistake. Cooperation must always be thoroughly tempered by self-interest. There’s no one to really trust. I feel sorry for all those who don’t even have family to rely upon. What a hostile and cruel world it must be for them on the daily.

There’s a reason suicides are so common again, and it doesn’t take a crack team of statisticians and economists to figure out why. Human beings need personal connections and a purpose to live. Many of us now have neither. I see more ways this problem will worsen than I do ways it could resolve.
 
Last edited:
newave3

newave3

Don’t wake me
Joined
Nov 21, 2020
Messages
1,107
littlelungs said:
I hate how fucking long most of my posts are. It makes me feel like such a self-indulgent piece of shit and I don't know who would actually be interested in reading what I have to say. I don't ever expect anyone to read it or react to it or whatever, because it's all the same shit with me.

Of course, I don't feel this way about anyone else AT ALL – I love reading other people's posts and getting some insight as to what's going on in their lives. I only feel this way towards myself.

I try to keep my posts as short and sweet as I can, but my mind is such a busy place and I genuinely don't know how else to express myself aside from doing it through a written stream of blah blah fucking-blah.

Post as much as you want and have them be as lengthy as you want. I for one will read every word.
 
NumbItAll

NumbItAll

Waiting for the bus...
Joined
May 20, 2018
Messages
346
people who load the dishwasher in an illogical way. let's just throw shit wherever to minimize space and efficiency. :ohh:
 
  • Yay!
Reactions: Celerity
Celerity

Celerity

Enlightened
Joined
Jan 24, 2021
Messages
1,452
ExitHellishExistence said:
Yep. Rousseau and other believers in the Noble Savage were wrong. And if you look to our relatives in the apes, the only “nice” ones are the bonobos. Chimps commit legit infanticide and will massacre competing troupes.

However, I do think that, on the whole, life may have been better day-to-day for our hunter gatherer ancestors. It was of course a hard life. I can’t imagine living without modern conveniences, much less facing a threat from natural apex predators. That said, depression and many other diseases that affect us in old age like heart disease are virtually nonexistent among modern-day hunter gatherers. To all appearances, they actually seem to enjoy their materially deprived life better than our seemingly opulent and comfortable ones. It’s a bit of a mindfuck.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: newave3
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Desire=half of life. Indifference=half of death.
Joined
Jun 22, 2020
Messages
4,840
I damn near died yesterday. I inhaled watermelon I was eating. I love watermelon and now it's one more thing I can't eat.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Dead Meat
Celerity

Celerity

Enlightened
Joined
Jan 24, 2021
Messages
1,452
Meditation guide said:
I damn near died yesterday. I inhaled watermelon I was eating. I love watermelon and now it's one more thing I can't eat.
If you’re the one taking about how you could only take liquids a few days ago, you need to go to the doctor. There are things they can do if it’s what I had trouble with.
 
  • Love
Reactions: Dead Meat
shaolinwarrior

shaolinwarrior

New Member
Joined
Jun 23, 2021
Messages
2
My girlfriend of two+ years broke up with me over the phone, I still love her but haven’t had any contact in months. The only thing that has stopped me from going back to benzodiazepines (which I’ve been addicted to for 4 years) has been cannabis. However, I’ve been diagnosed with Cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome and if I carry on my kidneys will fail, this wouldn’t be a problem but the chronic pain and weeks of being bedbound makes it one. On top of this in the past two months multiple members of my family have been severely ill and one member has passed away. I can’t even make it to the funeral I’m too sick. My mental health has never been so bad and suicide/ going back to benzodiazepines is becoming more tempting. I have help for my BPD and other mental health issues but she’s on holiday and without cannabis I just don’t know how to get any relief. Never posted on here but also never felt so alone so thought I would give it a try.
 
littlelungs

littlelungs

Experienced
Joined
Oct 21, 2018
Messages
209
newave3 said:
Post as much as you want and have them be as lengthy as you want. I for one will read every word.
Rhaiyne said:
Agreed...

Y'all are the sweetest. I didn't expect that and it really warmed my heart. Thank you. ❤️ And of course, right back at you, and everyone else here, for that matter. The circumstances as to why we are all here are obviously terrible, and I hate that we're all suffering so much, but I'm incredibly grateful for this community.
 
Similar threads
Thread starter Title Forum Replies Date
Railiah P Venting This is really bothering me! Offtopic 1
F Abortion grief bothering me this morning Offtopic 14
Loneliest Who do you miss the most right now? Offtopic 26

Similar threads