Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
625
Drinking for sure .... I also run a lot. Feel like you can’t concentrate as hard if you just push yourself at running.
Nothing really works though .... I was happy while I thought I was killing myself. But obviously that didn’t work, so back to this sad existence.
 
Rex

Rex

Lonely af
May 25, 2018
169
Discord is a good distraction to talk in real time, and also bond with others more on there. I also play the piano and that is one of my main mechanisms which are healthy. I often turn to my draw of pills and sometimes whisky as well.

I try to play games when I can muster the energy for it. Really like TV episodes and Movies still though, just always depends on my mood when I want to watch something.

Really should get back into the gym myself, but uh... those stair machines! :pfff:
 
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spicyfriedtofu

Idiot
Jun 10, 2018
65
When it's the worst, I can't do anything except lying in bed and staring at the wall, drowning in anxiety.

When it's ok, I watch youtube and do a lot of cooking.

When it's good, I study all day. Then I realize again how lonely I am and I go back to my worst state.
 
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Maggotymaggots

-
Apr 18, 2018
54
Usually, I try to escape by watching TV or Youtube, playing a few different games that interest me, browsing sites like this, or a couple other diversions. I've found it more difficult to distract myself with these things lately, and have spent a lot more time thinking about suicide as a result.
 
weedoge

weedoge

Banned
Jul 12, 2018
1,528
Yeah seriously for the longest time I bought into the stigma towards drug abuse, but when I finally got over it, it’s like oh wait these improve your life.
I'm not sure about actually improving your life but they can definitely temporarily improve your QOL. Strong painkillers just feel so damn good and if there's no other way and you also don't plan to make any real "improvement" in your life then who fucking cares right? My body my choice.
 
weedoge

weedoge

Banned
Jul 12, 2018
1,528
Lately? Just sleeping. I wish I could get my hands on sleeping pills so I could sleep most of the day.

Watching stuff and playing games have been somewhat boring the past few weeks, and I just don't feel like drawing anything.
Yeah honestly I used to play a lot of OW and that's just depressing now and I used to play a lot of XIV but that's also depressing in it's own way. Feels like a pointless investment now, ironically it was probably more of a waste of time before I "gave up".
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
625
Driving at night while listening to music. While roaming arround i sometimes drive fast but it makes me miss my old car also. It's one of 2 or 3 things i still like in life.

When i get home late at night is the worst feeling though ... Knowing i'll get into bed and wake 4 hours later to get to work and it starts all over again for another day. So my escape goes to depression real fast.
 
weedoge

weedoge

Banned
Jul 12, 2018
1,528
Driving at night while listening to music. While roaming arround i sometimes drive fast but it makes me miss my old car also. It's one of 2 or 3 things i still like in life.

When i get home late at night is the worst feeling though ... Knowing i'll get into bed a'd wake 4 hours later to get to work and it starts all over again for another day. So my escape goes to depression real fast.
Wish I could drive so bad, used to dream of doing something like that
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
625
Oh I could just never afford lessons or a car... my fam paid for my sisters driving and car but I guess they know I'm going nowhere in life so don't need it. I'm 23 so I really should be by now, ah well.

I hope someday you can get a car and license to experience driving.
 
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Temporarilyabsurd

Temporarilyabsurd

NOISE:signal
Apr 27, 2018
440
Movies.

Waves crashing on the beach.

Pretending I'm in a nightclub performing covers of seventies favourites to entranced enthralled audience ,

- that would be the virtual reality game for me ... the adulant audience .

It's all about me . Why do people have a problem with that ?
 
Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
625
Driving at night while listening to music. While roaming arround i sometimes drive fast but it makes me miss my old car also. It's one of 2 or 3 things i still like in life.

When i get home late at night is the worst feeling though ... Knowing i'll get into bed and wake 4 hours later to get to work and it starts all over again for another day. So my escape goes to depression real fast.
Wandering at night ... I feel that. Usually have to walk though. I can’t tell if it helps or kills me ... the darkness feels like I can hide myself and be alone to think. But then I feel so weird and alone .... and the night is alternately too long and never long enough .
 
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