Welcome to SanctionedSuicide, a pro-choice forum for the discussion of mental illness and suicide. Please read our rules and our Principles.
If you are in need of immediate support, please call the Samaritans hotline at (877) 870-4673, or check our recovery resources.
my family just went through a stressful relocation and i want to give them time to settle down and make friends and ultimately develop a real support system before i do something that will affect them forever. i want to make sure they're in a comfortable enough place to where something traumatic won't completely tear them apart; truthfully, some days i think i'm being incredibly naive, but i don't really know what else i can be doing.
and it's tricky-- i'm often terrified that by being too encouraging or available for them now, i'm going to make it harder for them when i pass. but i also wouldn't be able to pass without knowing they were going to be okay, or without at least opening an avenue to cope with their loss in a healthy way.
ultimately, i'm still alive for them. i want my last days with them to be meaningful. i also want to finish season 2 of gossip girl
Honestly I don’t have much keeping me alive right now. The majority of my family passed away, most of my friends stepped away once my mental health turned for the worst, and I’m not fighting to keep my job.
Only thing keeping me a live per say is that all my previous suicide attempts failed. I should’ve passed on my most recent attempt, but got extremely “lucky” and survived. I’d CTB in a heartbeat if I had N
I guess that I am still living out of spite. It feels like this world was designed to make me crumble, so I fight on to achieve my dreams, in the first place BECAUSE the world is seemingly trying to fuck me over. I can relate to OP in the sense that I want to have kids to pass my stuff, heritage and family legacy onto.
Parents because of ones mental well being and the others rep in front of family.
Also finally gaining some independence and maybe self acceptance. Those have always been the two things I've desired for the longest. If I can gain that even for a little while then I can truly die happy.
Even though I hate the question. I do love this thread.
I don't like this question cause mental health professionals stress that you do answer this question. Ant the more I think about it I realize I don't truly have a reason to live. Like the question I feel encourages me to think more about suicide when the more I think about I don't truly have a reason.
But still here cause mostly survival instinct, fear maybe, cause they tell me I'm not supposed to kill myself, and maybe cause I'm starting to change my focus to just plain looking forward to a natural death instead. I mean I'm halfway through life. And that's the long half I think. I mean as ya get older time goes quicker. So I'm kinda more than half through. At least the last half won't seem as long as the first.
I don't know. Frankly I just don't know how to answer this question honestly.
Suicide is hard, logistically speaking and also psychologically speaking
My family and friends would be sad
I'm kinda curious to see what crazy shit will happen next in this fucked up world
Things might conceivably get better for me
I have some limited usefulness to people in my community
I'm not that depressed, most of the time. I mean, I think that life is objectively shitty and it would have been preferable for me to never have been born, but I don't experience enough pain consistently enough to go through with suicide...at least right now. That might change. In fact it's highly likely that it will. I do intend to leave this world on my own terms if at all possible.