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IwishIwasAttractive

IwishIwasAttractive

Boomer
Joined
May 15, 2020
Messages
35
I saw this tweet that said "my thoughts before anything: maybe if i wasn't ugly" and i was shocked by how real it was. being ugly my only reason.

whats urs?
 
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PrettyNoose

PrettyNoose

is pretty pain
Joined
Mar 1, 2020
Messages
276
There are many but two that I can list off the top of my head is the suffering of aging and knowing that a worse death awaits if I don't kill myself, and just losing interest in this entire existence. We are born to work and die and that in itself is depressing as hell.
 
Crushed_Innocence

Crushed_Innocence

Hungry Ghost
Joined
Oct 16, 2019
Messages
424
Because every guy I have ever liked has rejected me cruelly. And because I am a woman and a minority. And I am an orphan. And I have BPD. And I am alone/no real close friends. And because it is the way I can finally feel in control.
 
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Iwantoutrightnow

Experienced
Joined
Jun 27, 2019
Messages
274
Because I am tired of fighting battles I can never win. I have had moments where I thought I was moving forwards only to fall back down further into the pit than I was when I started. I don't belong in this world, never did, never will.
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Joined
Sep 4, 2019
Messages
5,825
Reason I want to die is my incompetence (so much I don't know that I should know), difficulty articulating myself verbally, a very bad memory where I forget whole conversations and my mental illnesses make life extremely difficult
 
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Fedrea

Specialist
Joined
May 14, 2020
Messages
327
To the people who are saying it’s cos they are alone......This must be awful but is there not still hope that you could still find love with a partner for example? There are some things in life that happened and we can’t do anything about them and then there are other things in life that can change and there is such a big difference
 
cosmonaut

cosmonaut

Member
Joined
May 17, 2020
Messages
23
Fedrea said:
To the people who are saying it’s cos they are alone......This must be awful but is there not still hope that you could still find love with a partner for example? There are some things in life that happened and we can’t do anything about them and then there are other things in life that can change and there is such a big difference

Loneliness can be defined differently depending on the person you're talking too. I believe I could someday find a partner and marry, but I'm lonely because of lost friendships and family members. I'm lonely because hardly anyone understands some of the chronic/mental health issues I've been through, and it's lonely knowing how stigmatized it is when talking about it to someone in real life.

I think of loneliness as more of loss of connectedness instead of it more of an intimate love/dating type of thing, if that makes sense.
 
RayoSinSol

RayoSinSol

I can’t ignore the abyss. It is real.
Joined
Mar 26, 2020
Messages
109
Fedrea said:
To the people who are saying it’s cos they are alone......This must be awful but is there not still hope that you could still find love with a partner for example? There are some things in life that happened and we can’t do anything about them and then there are other things in life that can change and there is such a big difference
There are different kinds of “alone.”

A person can be among millions of people and still be “alone” for a number of reasons.

So many different facets to the idea of “connection.”

“How does each person survive, and also feel connected with all the differences between us?“ That seems, to me, to be the absurdly open-ended question that this universe asks each of us, in our daily experiences.


And there are so many potential layers to answering it! For some that question is a simpler one to answer than for others. And the value that is brought from the worlds of people who have a harder time answering that question, for others, into the greater market of the world, is not ignorable.
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Joined
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Messages
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SHThrowAway213 said:
My mental health problems.
PTSD, BPD and Alcoholism.
My physical health is failing (chronic gastritis and neuropathy) and that is caused by my alcoholism.
Everyday stress.
Life is shit all the time.
My PCP told me the reason I've been throwing up all the time is gastritis and I hate it
 
omoidarui

omoidarui

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
Joined
Apr 30, 2019
Messages
847
unlike some I actually have a lot to live for, but I also have a Peter Pan complex.

in an ideal world i’d be someone’s little boy forever or at least always have future potential, but there comes a point in the mid-twenties from which it’s just a gradual decline until old age, and then in the eyes of society you’re dispensable relatively speaking. when incidents involving young people occur in the news it’s more outrage-inducing than if it happened to an older person, which in my eyes just proves which generation is more valued. the beauty of life is in youth, i don’t see the point of living after.
 
gymletethnicel

gymletethnicel

Ugliest man alive
Joined
May 16, 2020
Messages
27
Because I am one of the most ugly men to have ever existed and everyone hates me because of how I look. This is also a reason why I am physically incapable of being in a relationship.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
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Jul 8, 2018
Messages
4,358
I don’t want to see what it will be like under the New World Order. But also over heartbreak, mental illness, genital herpes, poverty, lack of friends and feeling of belonging.
 
Inadaquacy

Inadaquacy

New Member
Joined
Feb 3, 2020
Messages
3
Having autism. I'd give my left nut to get rid of it. I'm not exaggerating. I'm tired of having a mind that one minute has me feeling like a million bucks then an hour later have me in tears. I just want to be normal.

The idea of suicide, to me, is comforting if that makes sense. I didn't have control over my looks, mental state, height, birthplace, etc. but I DO have control over when it can end and how, and just knowing that, makes me feel at least a little better, knowing I have that level of control.
 
TacoBell

TacoBell

Member
Joined
May 18, 2020
Messages
20
Because I was never given a chance, I was sexually abused as a kid, my family neglected me, I never fit in and know I never will.. Because I know that I will never be truly happy.

I've never felt safe, just for once, I'd like to feel the calmness that I know death will bring.
I'm tired of worrying. Tired of fighting. I just want to sleep.
 
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the end is near

Member
Joined
Mar 9, 2020
Messages
29
Physical, mental, and financial problems. I'm not a tough person, when I feel sick and nauseous along with other conditions I have I want to kill myself. Add to that mental distress and not having much money and suicide looks quite attractive. I just wish it was an easier thing to do.