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People are pathetic animals. I hate parents. I hate people that continue to breed even though they know life sucks.
Parents/breeders are the worst kind of people.

People ostrasizing others cause they feel someone is different than themselves AND/OR for selfish reasons like they want others for themselves so they get rid of anyone they can.
Peoples fear over everything can go and make anyone go over their ways with their actions.
 
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ActualLesbian

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Almost nobody actually cares and goes out of their way to check up on me. I’m just in the background of people’s lives. Nobody will care about me until I’m dead and I don’t even know who I am.
 
Lucifer'sRight

Lucifer'sRight

Experienced
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Because i hate humanity and the fact that they don't understand that sadness is revolution,
And the only thing i hate more then barbarian people is fucking overly sunny days,
and on sunny days FUCKING people abandon their liars, so it's a combo, it's summer.

Fake, unsensitive savages crawling out to recharge their reptilian brains, to get some more energy so they can tell you what to do and who to be a bit louder.

Among other reasons.
Final Escape said:
I don’t want to see what it will be like under the New World Order. But also over heartbreak, mental illness, genital herpes, poverty, lack of friends and feeling of belonging.

I think we already live under the New World Order, nazis never lost, this is the Fourth Reich,
"Silent weapons for Quiet Wars". It's a war on our mind.

<sorry for offtopic>
 
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737492

broken beyond repair
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I have ptsd from sexual, mental and physical childhood abuse that therapy doesnt help. I've never had a friendship last for longer than two years. Most of the time I have no one I can hang out with. I'm estranged from the majority of my family members. My mom is a perfectionist who imposes her standards on me. My dog is dying. I hate my appearance and want multiple plastic surgeries I'll never be able to afford. I'm too broken to ever find someone who loves me and stays with me.

I think that's all lol.
 
Brink

Brink

Exhausted. RadHomo.
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Heavy said:
People are pathetic animals. I hate parents. I hate people that continue to breed even though they know life sucks.
Parents/breeders are the worst kind of people.
You came on to the chat and admitted to watching some of the most disgusting, torturous content, and your problem with life are people who casually have kids?

The worst kind of person is you.
 
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Heavy

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thebrinkimdriven said:
You came on to the chat and admitted to watching some of the most disgusting, torturous content, and your problem with life are people who casually have kids?

The worst kind of person is you.
Do you know who did the torturing? People.

How am I a bad person for wanting to see the truth?
 
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Onlyout

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With me, there is premature aging, not regulating my mental condition, losing friendships I should have valued (not any of the recent ones I am leaving behind; those I should've never made in the first place), being unattractive/ugly, and having been born at all. Feeling that people just want me to stay stuck as a cautionary tale for them which is preventing me from moving on.
 
Brink

Brink

Exhausted. RadHomo.
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Heavy said:
Do you know who did the torturing? People.
Yeah, and most people don't do that to others. Likewise, most people don't watch shit like that.

Heavy said:
How am I a bad person for wanting to see the truth?
I doubt your intentions when watching that kind of content has got anything to do with truth-seeking.
 
Doormat

Doormat

Life is never so bad that it can't get any worse
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I have had to make my world so small to protect myself from my inability to cope with emotional pain. I'm so lonely and can't bear the thought of living like this for the rest of my life. I have chronic suicidal ideation and BP2 but feel I have to keep going because it would hurt my family. I feel trapped and just want some peace.
 
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thebrinkimdriven said:
Yeah, and most people don't do that to others. Likewise, most people don't watch shit like that.


I doubt your intentions when watching that kind of content has got anything to do with truth-seeking.

Fuck most people.

It's about how we all are capable of doing something like that. We humans.
 
Apathetic999

Apathetic999

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I'd say the main reason is the unremitting nature of my depressive symptoms (present over the past 10 years, started when I was a kid and was better for a short period of time but came back), other psychiatric issues, and lack of positive emotional experiences to balance those things out. Also, hopelessness about these things improving in the future.
 
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I_love_to_bake

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Heavy said:
Fuck most people.

It's about how we all are capable of doing something like that. We humans.
I mean, human history is brutal. If you think about it, many of us have ancestors that brutally murdered and tortured their enemies. It was quite common for thousands of years. So there is a dormant dark side in all of our ancestral memory waiting to be unlocked.

Videos definitely have the power to traumatize anyone so I would be very careful about watching the kinds of videos you're talking about
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
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RileyTanaka said:
Irreversible, debilitating health problems; financial ruin; social ruin; guilt and shame at my decisions; poor quality of life; depression; interpersonal deficits; the world is ending anyway.
Right on top of it all this economic collapse about to hit and make many people poor as fuck.
 
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Toptock

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The universe simply doesnt need some people, and that's absolutely ok. It's a natural law. I only regret not being necessary. I'm not afraid to die. Dust always returns to dust
 
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CTB-London said:
My reason is that being gay is totally awful for me and prevents me from living a happy or fulfilling life
Gayyyy???

You are a social caste celebrated every day!
 

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Conker

Conker

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Because this amnesia hasn't been truly cured, so I don't currently know enough to choose anything else but nonexistence.

There's no healing, growth or happiness within any negative timeline. At best what you can realistically hope for is personal contentment and induced feelings of bodily euphoria. Some of us weren't even lucky enough to experience either of those.
 
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GonnaGoBye

GonnaGoBye

Will die soon
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If im still with her, then maybe just maybe I dont want to ctb and still want to live.
 
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andresantosfx

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My mom was depressed I she ctb when I was 14. Of course, it was hard for me but even being that young, I understood her choice and I thought It was for good.
My life isn't that bad, I have friends, sometimes girlfriend, I already traveled a lot, hiked the Himalayas and tried some of the best wines around the world. I did a lot of things that I really like, but never really enjoyed life itself, I mean, my existence. Since I was a little kid, even before my mum ctb, I remember thinking that I had the option, I would choose to do not exist. And I think now its time to put an end on it.
 
JoeeWasHere

JoeeWasHere

Recovery Gang
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I don’t want to grow old and end up having someone to wipe my ass near the end/onset dementia.

I’d rather do the shit I enjoy to live a short life and then go out in a blaze of glory.
 
Thinking

Thinking

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Intense guilt, feeling overwhelmed all the time, and feeling hopeless for the world and for my future. Only thing keeping me alive is my guilt at leaving family/friends behind. Weird that guilt is both my oppressor and my savior...
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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Main reason is an injury and I don't want to go on living like this. I could experience many good things in life and now I'm done. I just want to end it. I don't want my life to get worse because of my injury. I wouldn't tolerate it. I can't see that. I'm alive but my life not the same as before the injury. Now I hate it.
 
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AnxietyAttack44 said:
My husband died in my hands and i really loved him. Also lost pregnancy because of that. Mostly just to go back to my husband.
This happened to me as well. My partner committed suicide and I miscarried the morning I found out. It's been 5 months and still all I can think of is dying to be where ever he is.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Living dead girl
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I simply do not like living. I see it as pointless. I have been prone to bad luck and I have always struggled with life. I also have physical health issues which make life exhausting.
 
loopylou

loopylou

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Mental health
Loneliness
Money worries
A rare disorder that affects my sweat
Insomnia
Head to toe pain - flat neck syndrome, headaches, stomach pains & cramping. Shoulder pain.
lack of sex life
 
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ErzsebetBATHORY

BLOOD COUNTESS. ashes ashes, we all fall down
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hmmm....this is a complex question, one which has far too many answers. id say for me, primarily cuz, put simply, life is shit. its horrid. i enjoy very little of it except drugs sexxxs music salamanders and dreams, and the rare few folk who are worth my time. (theres more but i wont bother with the details here, for im here to make a point) and the very little of it i do enjoi seems to fade with every passing day. each day is a new war, but ive forgotten what im fightin for. im too broken to keep on fighting, and i dont care to either. im so sick of lifes routines. its boring. up, over the top into no mans land.... fuck caught in the barbed wire and mustard gas again. when life starts feelin like that groundhogs day movie, no matter what you do, its time to go. theres no point in eating yer boots just to see another day of suffering.