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anyoneshorizon

Member
Jun 8, 2022
93
Personally I will not. I feel like there’s no point and it’s kinda cheesy for my situation. I don’t want to come off attention seeking to be honest I would feel better if no one knew I kill myself. If I did write a note I would want to say some things to my parents and probably tell them not to have a funeral or anything like that and to just get me cremated are whatever is cheapest I don’t want to be a burden in death.
I remember a few years back I had planned to kill myself and I had gotten the materials to kill myself and had a note. My mother was finding my behavior suspicious and her and my step dad confronted me about it. They shamed me and guilted me for even thinking about it. They were just angry and my step dad threw all the stuff away and they said that I don’t know what I’m thinking. My step dad found the note and read it out loud. They were talking about sending me to Boot Camp or something then me and my step dad “fought” because they were going to make me a get a hair cut and ofc I didn’t want to. And he pinned me on the floor and put his knee on my head.
Anyways what I’m trying to say is they would probably see my suicide as like some bullshit or something
 
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seewell

Member
Oct 16, 2022
23
I have thought a little about that. I don't know that I would ever be able to put how I feel into words, let alone a coherent letter. I also don't expect my last wishes to be taken seriously or fulfilled. I don't want a funeral. I don't want to be buried in a casket. I want all my things sold and the money donated to MAPS. That just doesn't seem to be much of a suicide note.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She dreams of eternal sleep
Sep 24, 2020
16,631
For me, I would personally see it as best to write a note as it could act as a form of closure for those left behind and could act as some explanation and could potentially give them some understanding, even know no matter what I would write, others would likely never be able to understand what I’m trying to say but in my opinion, it’s better than leaving nothing.
 
ItsForTheBest

ItsForTheBest

Kate Bush ❤️
Oct 11, 2022
71
It's a tough one. My sister didn't, and personally I'm grateful for that. I know those words would been etched forever into my head and intruded into my thoughts for the rest of my life. Key words would have become triggers. Perhaps it would have been different if she'd never had her say at all, but I feel like she'd communicated enough over the years to allow us some closure.

So as for me, no. I might post one somewhere like here I guess, but wouldn't write one for the ones I'm close to.
 
chundryshire

chundryshire

Member
Oct 19, 2022
5
Personally I will not. I feel like there’s no point and it’s kinda cheesy for my situation. I don’t want to come off attention seeking to be honest I would feel better if no one knew I kill myself. If I did write a note I would want to say some things to my parents and probably tell them not to have a funeral or anything like that and to just get me cremated are whatever is cheapest I don’t want to be a burden in death.
I remember a few years back I had planned to kill myself and I had gotten the materials to kill myself and had a note. My mother was finding my behavior suspicious and her and my step dad confronted me about it. They shamed me and guilted me for even thinking about it. They were just angry and my step dad threw all the stuff away and they said that I don’t know what I’m thinking. My step dad found the note and read it out loud. They were talking about sending me to Boot Camp or something then me and my step dad “fought” because they were going to make me a get a hair cut and ofc I didn’t want to. And he pinned me on the floor and put his knee on my head.
Anyways what I’m trying to say is they would probably see my suicide as like some bullshit or something
i have never been able to properly put my thoughts and feelings into words so i dont really know what im going to do. i dont want to leave my family clueless as to what caused it and i feel like they'd latch onto some bad thing that happened directly preceding it. (it would be a lot easier to say goodbye and explain to my friends, i think, because they've seen me act like myself and vent to them lots before)
 
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rylaia

Member
Oct 24, 2021
6
I don’t see the point in leaving any suicide note since my death will be as inconsequential as my life is, but I would if I felt I needed my family to know something practical ig.
 
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outatime_85

Mage
May 17, 2022
528
My family does not care how I die or where, and won't care if I leave a note or not.

That said, I will leave a note, maybe two pages or less, because if they want to gain a glimpse into any thoughts, they can read my journals, which detail most of my thoughts, dating from my childhood to today.
 
Callie Arcale

Callie Arcale

It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
Feb 10, 2021
720
No.
My life and death are self-explanatory.
No big mistery: She killed herself because she was ill and could not take it anymore.
 
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petteri

Member
Jan 5, 2020
5
I will leave a note if my mom is still alive then (she's end stage currently). And I will leave a note to my girlfriend as well, I don't want her to think that any of this is her fault (it isn't).

I want to cause as little agony to my closest people as I can.
 
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BusTicketholder

BusTicketholder

Ticket Holder
Oct 7, 2022
26
I'm still deciding, but I'm leaning towards yes. Personally I believe suicide notes offer much needed closure to someone's death and can potentially make the grieving process easier to bear. I'm living with family, and I wouldn't want them to live wondering what my last thoughts were, or if I was in pain, or if it was their fault, etcetera.
 
charmsmilepromise

charmsmilepromise

Member
Oct 17, 2022
8
I think leaving a respectful note would be a good thing to do.

I've lost two people. One did not leave a note, and I was angry at her for a long time. I understood the circumstances and did not blame her for wanting to leave. I just wish she had written some kind of goodbye, because we were close friends for 20 years.

The other person wrote a mean "this is all [x]'s fault" post on social media about one of his other friends. I thought that was vindictive and cruel.

I printed a version of the Survivor's Handbook and may include that in an "Important Files" box if I choose to leave someday.
 
ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
14,504
I dont plan to. I dont really see the point.
 
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User110504

I'm waiting for Angel of Death to kiss me..
Apr 14, 2022
6
Honestly, I don't think it's necessary.
 
Octogenarian

Octogenarian

Member
Feb 28, 2022
25
I'm going to leave an email, to be sent by GMail about 16 hours after I CTB. You can do that with GMail and that way I can notify most of the people on my contact list, rather than their getting it second hand days or weeks after I check out.

I have no living relatives, but I'm an old guy who has friends all over the US, although many of my friends have died (I'm 88).
In my note I'll say that I wanted to leave before my Parkinson's Disease and other ailments confined me to a sleazy nursing home and the prospect of having poorly paid aides having to feed, dress, and bathe me. That's my vision of "Hell."
 
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tokapi

Member
Nov 19, 2022
17
Personally I can't imagine leaving without writing to my loved ones - parents, best friends etc. there are lots f people who love me and they deserve an explanation
 
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freedomcalls

Student
Nov 9, 2022
136
I have a notebook for each of my children which I’ve written in throughout their lives - special memories, lessons they’ve taught me, sharing what I love about them or how they challenge me. Before I CTB I will leave write a final letter for each of them.

When I go, there is a shoebox for each of my children with their notebook and my favourite most personal photos of them and I. I hope it will be a comfort to them
 
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lebrodude

Member
Jul 18, 2022
41
Will leave several to family and select friends.
 
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Banshee

Student
Oct 25, 2021
100
I'll be leaving a single thank you note to one person.
 
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Thrtn

Tired
Aug 26, 2021
45
Yes, i don't want anyone blamed for my death/suicide (falsely accused/something like that). But also, i'm scared of surviving my attempt and they found my notes etc etc list goes on. My dilemma it never fucking end
 
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DysphoriaKilledMe

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Nov 21, 2022
51
I typed one up last night and attempted to print it out, but mon's printer is out of ink. I plan to "leave" tomorrow night, or at the very latest before December and I don't think the ink cartage will be replaced by then so probably not.
 
BipolarExpress

BipolarExpress

he/him · tired/exhausted
Nov 11, 2022
261
I probably will, just for closure. I hate the idea of leaving without explanation—it's the ultimate form of ghosting, which I detest in most cases.
 
jamie_

jamie_

emotionally abused from loving a narcissist
May 21, 2022
188
I already have (multiple times in varying ways) and I didn't even die.
 
Vetrarnott

Vetrarnott

Specialist
Jun 16, 2020
332
I'm leaning towards not doing so. Nothing I could write would provide sufficient comfort.
 
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CowsAreCool

Student
Sep 21, 2021
127
long notes just make things worse. If I leave anything it will be very brief. Succinct. Maybe it will act as a will in a way.

“Sorry everyone. Stick me in that oven. Adios”

That oughta do it
 
Jester

Jester

Student
Dec 19, 2019
150
I don't want to kill myself, but if I did, I'd leave something intended to make things less bad for my parents, making it clear that it wasn't their fault.