I doubt anyone on here will give you encouragement to take your life. It's down to you whether you want to end it all or continue living. You should start by talking about what your issue is first and seek guidance on it. Only when you have tried everything and it's not worked that's when you can make the judgement call. You can pm me to talk if you like, I'm a like-minded person and I'm also on here for the same reason as most.